The exact date of when all this started is October 3rd, 2010. Since then, I’ve lost about 50 lbs. Obviously, that’s too much too fast. I also became vegan right around that time, though that’s for animal rights, the weight loss is a bonus.

I started restricting to 900 kcals a day. Then to 500. Eventually, 400. Or just not eating unless being forced. That was my lowest, not including the few days that I just wouldn’t eat. Plus, whatever I worked off in exercise.

In the beginning of January (2011), I started to get scared. I hadn’t had a real period since October, and I knew it could effect whether or not I’m able to have kids one day. So I finally got up the nerve to tell my mom that I hadn’t been eating enough. She said we’d both make sure I started eating healthy again.

That’s when I brought my calories back to 800. I knew that still wasn’t enough, but I was afraid of gaining back. I figured if I added 50 calories to that, every two weeks, by mid July I’d be back up to 1,200.

That didn’t work. In May, I was sent to the hospital for observation because my heart rate was so low. I lied to the nutritionist and therapist there, mostly because my mother was in the room. So they didn’t send me to a mental hospital.

For awhile, I was at 1,300. Then I went back to 1,200. Now I’m going back to 900 until my mom sends me to River Centre (an ED residential clinic in Ohio). The assessment for that is December 1st.